great way to end the night
Hey everyone it's Kevin and welcome to my weblog. I decided to start this because lately my mind has been going crazy with so many emotions and feelings about so many different things, and I thought this would be a great way to express what I am feeling. I have been turning to my friends but I'm sure they are all sick of hearing my problems by now, and I appreciate them for dealing with me as much as possible. You are proably wondering why the title of this blog is called "As The Stomach Turns" but It is a name one of my friend ssaid should be the title for my life, and well I have to agree haha.
The night started out O.K, Kevin was pissed about somethings that went on during the day but he worked them out and we were going to chill over Miah's house. I was working and Kevin and Lisa came to vist me, and then when I got outta work the 3 of us went to a party where Morgan was at, Morgan is Kevin's girlfriend. We got there and the party sucked so we all left withen 10 mins of us being there, we decided to go to Diana's Pool even though it was like 11:00 at night. I was in a fine mood, I had a decent day at work and everything as fine. On the way to driving to Diana's Pool Kevin asked me to put in a CD he had which turned out to be "Candlebox - You", Morgan and Kevin we're making out in the backseat most of the way and I was just listening to the song and it had my mind racing with so many thoughts, and so many mixed emotions, that by the time we got to Diana's Pool I was depresed. So we were at Diana's Pool for I'd say 1/2 hour when people finnally started to realise something was wrong. But I couldn't tell them, I just didn't know how.
So we leave Diana's Pool just because no one was having any fun, so I'm driving, and Kevin is trying to talk to me about what was wrong but I still couldn't tell them. I knew by the end of the night I had to make a decision of what to do, unfourtantly I didn't start this blog sooner or else eveyone could understand the situation allittle better. I decided we would stop at a place where we could go for a walk.
So we get there and I tell Kevin I need to talk to Morgan so I asked if he could stay with Lisa while me and Morgan went someplace away from them to talk. So me and Morgan we're walking and it took me awhile to get the words out but i finnally got them out. I told morgan I feel in an akward position because I still have really strong feelings for her, and how it bothers me that Kevin is also my bestfriend and she is agood friend, and they both turn to me when there is something wrong. That them asking me for advice puts me in a akward postion because I don't want to do anything to hurt my relationship with either of them. I told her that it makes me feel akward when her and Kevin sit in the backseat of my car and makeout 24/7 and then she'll be like "Kevin what's up". She told me that they would stop making out in front of me, and I'm like "well then I feel akward that you are being different around me" so then she's like "well then maybe me and you should just hang out and not the three of us together" and then I'm like "but thats not fair for Kevin, for you to be going out with me alone" and she was like "But I don't now what you want me to do?" and then I said "honestly I just want to hate you!" ~ I could never hate morgan but thats the only thing that would make this all ok.
So then Kevin was getting impatient and yelled if we were done yet so we finished up our convo, It fealt nice to get all of that out but now I wanted to talk to Kevin and let him know what was going on but he was pissed off so I went to my car and waited for him while him and morgan talked.
Then Morgan got a phonecall saying her brother was in the hospital and she had to go home. The way to Morgan's house was terrible, there was so much tension in the car, and n one was taling. Kevin ended up staying with Morgan nd I ended up brining Lisa home.
what a great way toi end the night.
Posted at 9/27/2003 11:21:05 pm by Drinkinmy151
